Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Missing Him

Okay... sorry, another post with no pictures {this is so unlike me}. But I stayed up late watching the Lost season finale with Ryan (via Skype) and decided I wanted to ramble a bit, isn't that what blogs are for?

Ryan left on Saturday to go learn how to be a research nerd in Maine... why he had to go clear in the heck to Maine, I don't know. He seemed pretty savvy in both the research and nerd realms to me, but what do I know...I digress. He will be gone on an all expenses paid for trip until next Saturday and I am trying to keep my sanity at home with the girls. It has only been two days and I have already resorted to a little craft therapy...

I wanted to just post a few goals that I want to work on while Ryan is gone (in no particular order).

#1 - Keep my sanity, aka don't lose it with the girls! Don't get me wrong. I love being a mother of two drama queens girls. But sometimes the whining/fussing can be exhausting and really get on my nerves. I want to try really hard to be more positive and fun while Daddy is away. Our days usually consist of me being bearable until about the late afternoon, and then I am just an ornery patch of weeds. But usually it is okay because then Ry gets home in the evening and plays with the girls and lets me take a breather (even if it is just to make dinner). *sigh* How am I ever going to survive his 3rd year of medical school...

#2 - Keep on track with my exercising. I am one or the other. I can either eat right, or exercise. I have a heck of a time doing both... and lately I haven't done either. I am borrowing Jillian Michaels 30-day Shred from a friend and am resolved to at least do that everyday. And some days I still go for walks with the girls. I still need to do better with my eating, but the exercise is a good start.

#3 - Try to read my scriptures everyday - I am the worst. I have the hardest time reading my scriptures. Usually because anytime I sit down with a book I just crash, but I just am so stubborn sometimes. I need to just buckle down and be more diligent in my studies, otherwise I'll jinx myself and Heavenly Father will send a big trial my way to knock some sense into me.

#4 - Keep up on the house (mainly the dishes) - I will be so good at keeping house for a day or two, and then I relax for one day and the dishes start to pile up... and the toys get scattered all over. And then the next day I can't get myself motivated to do anything and more dishes pile up, and the toys get spread farther around the house... and then the next day everything seems so overwhelming that I just leave the house and go to the park or something so I can avoid the inevitable... then eventually, before the child family services show up to take away my children,  I have to roll up my sleeves and hustle around the house to get it back into shape. Then I am tired from all that... and the vicious cycle starts again!!! So... keep up Liz... two days down and lookin' good!

Well, looking at those four little goals I am going to stop. right. there (especially since you are all seeing a side of me that this blog doesn't usually show... secrets out, I am far from perfect!). Hopefully if I focus really hard on these goals then I won't miss Ry so much, and the week will go by quickly so I can see him again. Until then, everyone say I little prayer for me so I don't strangle the girls...

PS - I'll try and do something fun so I have some pictures or something interesting to post next.

8 comments:

Deb said...

Hey I struggle with every single one of those things. It's like I wrote that post! Especially the insanity in the afternoon. I hate afternoons, I always have the munchies and I'm always lazy and I just want Patrick to come home! That's funny, I just got Jillian's 30 Day Shred about two weeks ago...I've only done it like three times - I said I'd do it every day... Anyway, good luck with your goals...just know you're not alone!!

Alisha said...

Good luck without Ryan this week. I totally know what you mean about needing a break by the time your husband comes home. I am the EXACT same way, and I only have one drama queen (for the moment at least). You'll do great, good luck with those goals!!!

Chantele said...

I read my scriptures online believe it or not. I have a really hard time just sitting down to read them, so I got an account on readthescriptures.com. They e-mail me a chapter a day, and if I'm in the mood I read more than one. I usually read in the morning.:) It has helped a TON! Good luck without the hubby. That's never fun.:( I'm excited you joined the Battle of the Baby Fat! Hopefully we can motivate each other!;)

Ash said...

I could totally take this post and insert it into my blog and it'd be exactly what I need to work on, plus some. So glad to know other moms deal with it too. Your always so happy and bubbly I can't picture you having a bad day.It'd be incredibly hard to be so far from family and then have your husband leave town too. I'll say a little prayer for ya my friend. You freaking RocK!

Ash said...

Thanks so much for posting this tho. I have so many days where I feel like such a crappy wife/mother and hearing that other moms struggle with the same things I do helps me know that it's not me, it's just a hard job. :)

Jennifer said...

This is like a flashback from 15 years ago for me. Hang in there! You are a wonderful mama and in just a few moments, Sarah will be graduating from high school. :)

Aden and Jamie said...

Oh.... now I see why the week was dragging by on Monday. Because Ryan is away. Now I feel bad for my comment on your status. You can't fool me though, I know you're perfect, as much as you try to lead us astray. :)

James and Talai Macfarlane said...

You are almost there! I am thinking of you! Good luck with your goals! And despite what you say, you are an amazing mother and wife - your children are blessed to have you for a mother! :)